I don't know what is going on with me lately. I don't know if it's because of the holidays or the weather or what, but all I know is I just feel so depressed all I want to do is cry. My two youngest children have therapy 1-2 times a week and I am supposed to continue it at home the rest of the week. I will admit I have not had the urge to do any or haven't done any and I feel like I am letting my children down, as they are the only one who suffer. Also, I haven't been wanting to do any housework or scrap booking or even writing on this blog. I had to force myself to do this! I don't even want to play the computer games i.e.-diner dash and I really like playing them.
I am so cold all the time and I know what you're thinking--maybe she needs her thyroid checked. Well, I have that checked at least 1 time a year--maybe more---family history and a recent goiter found--woowhoo. I have been having this pain--so intense. If anyone has ever had a c-section before and remembers the pain afterwards--that is exactly what I am feeling---but all the time. I am taking a pain medication for it (doctors RX). That seems to help, but lately it's only been making it less severe--when it used to get rid of it completely. This pain makes is so I can't sneeze, cough, laugh, lay down, sit up or even have the cat sit on me without wincing in pain and holding my abdomen. I mean sitting here typing this and I can feel sharp pains all thru my abdomen area.. I was told by my doctor that I need physical therapy in order to help the pain. The pain will never go away completely, but with therapy it should get less intense. I also now have to be followed by the doctor more, because during a cat scan they found a spot on my right lung! Oh can you stand it. When it rains, it pours.
All I want to do is take a nice HOT bath, and go to bed!
My husband has been awesome thru this and I am so worried that I am going to make him want to leave. I know he says he doesn't want to, but people can only take so much before they throw their hands up.
I just want to feel better, and I want this year to be so much better than past years. I want to get out of debt, put some money away for savings, lose weight and just have a fun year.